100% chance of precipitation

there's no such thing as 100 % chance of precipitation.  The weather forecasters should say, "It will rain today.  I can guarandamtee it."  It's the only time they can guarandamtee anything so why not just shout it out.  It's not like we can get any more depressed about it. 

Giving Tree

'tis the season for the Giving Tree project.  I've already logged in several hours on the computer designing the tags to be put onto the area trees.  Requests are trickling in and I hope to stay on top of it with my topnotch crew.  yea right.  My crew thinks this is just so much fun.  Perhaps I've been doing it too long because I don't think it's fun anymore and I am a little jaded when it comes to some of the families receiving gifts.  Sorry.  been around that block before.

Lifted up by a rose

My depression has lifted it seems.  It may have been the lovely rose elixir I took Thursday morning because by Friday morning I felt much better.  Perhaps it was the poster project for the Church  I developed using my calligraphy skills.  Maybe doing something creative lifted my spirits.  Perhaps the rose elixir released something so that I could do something creative.
I will be finished with the first installment by tonight.

depression hits hard

it's thanksgiving day.   the pies are ready, the rolls are raising, the others are just beginning to stir from their warm beds and I am so depressed I cry.  This has been slowly growing for a few weeks now and I feel it will soon overtake me and I'll be immobilized by it.  Stress?  hormones?  Weight?  Weather?  Time of Year?  Body aches? Absolutely.  Now, how to deal.

Just to be able to go back to sleep for a couple of hours.  Wake up and the house was cleaned and sweet smelling.  No arguing, attitudes or selfishness.  I have so failed as a mother,.  My children cannot wait to get away from here.  They run from helping me and fight me when they are discomforted with my requests for help. 
I just want to hate them. 

My husband has quit drinking.  Excellent.  At first, I felt he had a handle on his anger.  It was so wonderful.  I felt I had a partner instead of a volcano.  Alas.  The volcano is back and erupting strong as ever.  I'm so tired of it.  Everyone is out to get him all the time.  Has it EVER occurred to him that just possibly his attitude could have something to do with his outlook and response?  Or am i missing something. 

My parents are old and need my help.  No one else helps with Mom.  I feel a little resentful while being grateful I am able to help her.  I'm also damned angry that her mind is gone.

God how I want to run and just keep running.