hubby is home this week and working around the house. We are usually apart from one another for 5 of the 7 days in each week. So, being home for 10 days straight is pushing around my toasters. I do not want to make his breakfast for him each morning. I do not want to wait for him to watch the guys fish while going on my morning walk. I want to be able to continue my life as normal since I am not on vacation.
I am taking him for granted. I am not loving him the way he needs to be loved, which is taking time out from my schedule to spend time with him, doing things like making meals and slowing down. Instead I am resenting his presence. I look forward to retirement years with a bit of trepidation. Can we spend that much time together without me shooting him?
I believe we've just grown apart, we have separate lives during the week and we will have to make those lives meld a bit. Adjustment will take time but I think I'm the one who is going to have to make the larger changes. I pray I can.
So, it's time to take time to spend more time with him now, making small adjustments here and there. Maybe it's the heat or menopause or both but I'm feeling less than charitable right now.
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