self expression

My sister and I visited over coffee yesterday sitting on the deck overlooking the lake.  Among some of the things we talked about were tattoos and the meaning behind them as well as the cosmetic consequences.  What symbol would be worth permanently imbedding into you skin.  She thought a dragonfly between her thumb and forefinger.  Dragonflies are beautiful and almost a christian symbol.  We also spoke of the accurate description of the zodiac signs and choosing that symbol to remind us of our strengths and weaknesses.  I like that idea.  I do not want a tattoo.  My "set in stone" decisions change too rapidly and instead of accepting that I have permanently placed something on my skin so I've decided to like it, I will continue to play with henna.  However, I will do so more often and with less fear of discovery by others.  I do not like explaining myself nor do I want to entertain what others may be thinking of me.  But that very thing has been keeping me from being myself.  I need to express myself damning the consequences.  Like me or dislike me, this is who I am.  People like me for the most part.  I am a nice person.  I am very fearful, however, not that anyone else would even begin to think I am.  Just as I am shy and no one thinks I am.