fatigue

Dad had a better day and I'm not angry at my siblings. They're doing what they can.  I cannot decide how much is enough.  And I have to let go my expectations.  I'm too tired to make good decisions anyway.  It's not physical fatigue so much (although I can't sleep on the bed over at moms), but emotional fatigue.  I'm numb and I want to stay that way for a few hours.  I can't think about Dad being there alone tonight or what he may or may not feel about being alone.  I have given all I can for right now.  Now I have to focus on getting my husband off to work for the week, work on the banners, get caught up on laundry, etc. etc.  Tomorrow will come soon enough.
It's so very early but I think I'm headed for the barn.  I'm up at O dark 30 to get Ray off so really it's bedtime now.  good.