The last day of the year. I love the idea of starting over. Renewing goals and ideas. Striving to be a better human being. I begin in November thinking about what I found utterly lacking in my life in the past year(s) and what I'd like to do to change or what I'd like to begin anew. Like a new project; or learning something new. One year I learned how to work with clay. One year I learned karate. This year I am still going through the throws of menopause and I'm an emotional wreck as well as being unwell. In spite of this and because of this I pledge to be kinder to myself and take better care of myself.
My parents are needing increasing amounts of help and I know I will be there at least as often as I have in the past year. Extension is growing again and I know I will be involved in some way there also although I feel less inclined to spend a lot of time there. I have neglected my home for so long that I no longer sense a rhythm here.
I pledge to rebuild that rhythm. To focus on simplifying and putting a better order to my home. Shelves and cabinets are high on my list. I will be more intelligent and less emotional about discarding some of my possessions. I will clean out my closets and drawers. And I will do these things with time and thoughtfulness; not hurrying to get it done and over with. I need that emotional connection and disconnection to develop a peace in me.
I hope to stay on top of my projects; like gardening. being proactive and buying the stuff I need before I need it. or building the things I need before I need them. Like wire cages for the tomatoes. Like investing in the wire fencing for whatever reason.
I have a couple of calligraphy projects; one that is a continuing one for the church; banners for the agnus dei (which I need to get going on the third installment) and a meditative project that I'm still working out in my hear using Corinthians 13.
I've been here long enough. 'til next year.
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